Thursday, January 19, 2012

Never be the same ^^

Today.. i declared freedom. Today, i felt love. Today, I'll never be the same.

 woke up with smile and greatness, expecting not of anything. first thing that happened early today, i an argument with my brothers which happens usually. And again, I am late in my JEEP laboratory. "an hour late again Claribel?" A statement that I painfully here. But today, it's not the same. I opened quietly. but quietness didn't welcome me. instead, a synchronized HAPPY BIRTHDAY song cheered my cold skin from travelling. I hate listening to a birthday song for me. It makes me feel old, but, puts a smile inside my heart. Yes. It's my birthday. But today, it will never be                              the same. 

So much for those old fashioned Happy Birthday songs. Back to the real world where I have o face my make-up laboratory classes. The pity feeling when everyone in your class started to pack their bags and leave you and your lab room together. Somehow, i feel alone. Not like my ordinary days. I think loneliness is part of hose change. Because today, it will never be the same. I left alone in my room looking for someone to celebrate with. I thought of priorities first. My calculator! I left i in my brother and I have nothing o use in my statistics quiz later!! I picked up my phone and stared dialing his number. It's quite annoying to discover that your brother prioritizes his girlfriend more than you on your very special day! And to change my mood, I had lunch with my special someone, as planned. I can' be with him on my  celebration, so I decided o be with him at the very date of my birthday. An hour for lunch with him feels  empty. Again, it is no the same.

practice for our Afro-Asian lit play again.. Being a leader is quite tiring. My members were stupid and imaginative. At least they made me smile. But, it's sill not the same. "Andiyan na si maam!!!" My classmate shouted. "What? Weird. She's too early now huh.." Our instructor is always 30 mins late. And now, she is 15 mins early? Sounds different. It is not the same. I walked towards the room carrying my heavy school equipment carelessly. And within a reflex, they all shouted. ''Happy Birthday Clamor!!'' Cartolina with verses and pictures of mine, delicious fishballs with creamy mayo and spicy red sauce, flamed candles and sweet smiles of my dear classmates while singing the birthday song!! Everything feels so surprising, everything is not the same!! One by one they gave me 18 cute yellow flowers with matching hugs and kisses, and sweet letters from all of em. I didn't expect an effort like this! an occasion for a single person, made special by 25 more friends.. Is that how special I am?? :)) Tears keep running on my face. I can' help it.. I am really crying. Indeed, it is never the same. Lots and lots and lots and lots of surprises came after that, and this day marked my whole life. Indeed, it is never the same. Even how rude and ugly I described myself, others would really make something for you o make you feel your worth.. Indeed that today, IS NEVER THE SAME.. 

Because today is my day. Today.. i declared freedom. Today, i felt love. Today, and I'll never be the same.

 ^^my 18th birthday

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